January 10, 2004


I'm getting headaches, and I don't know if I'm coming down with something or if it's just stress related. Or both. I feel fine otherwise (health-wise) so I suspect they may be tension headaches. Oh well, Advil is doing a good job of knocking them out so I can't complain too much.

Unfortunately, my sleep patterns are all out of whack. I stayed up until a ridiculous hour last night worrying about the stupidest things, like things that are totally out of my control, or things like "What if the terrorists drop a nuclear bomb on San Francisco and all of my friends die and we're trapped in our house with radioactive fallout over our heads and a contaminated water supply? Would I still be able to blog in these conditions?" Okay, maybe not the last thing. Anyway, I seriously need to get a grip on reality. Hopefully tonight will be better.

These grad school applications are really stressing me out. It's funny because I never realized what an impact stress had on my life until I didn't have it anymore. I used to be so wound up at IBM that I never even recognized I was stressed. Then suddenly, after I stopped working and after I started feeling better and stopped stressing out about my heart, all kinds of good things happened. My acne cleared up, my canker sores went away, very few headaches, all kinds of things. My attitude got a lot more positive (well I did work on that consciously, but it worked) and I just felt better and more hopeful about life. Now that I am back in a stressful situation, I'm more moody and irritable, headaches have returned, and I expect to get a big old pimple on my nose or something. Luckily this stress is short-term. I'm looking forward to going back to my reduced stress life.

Posted by Shelby at January 10, 2004 02:18 PM